I've got good news! :D

Baby's phone is now working! Yayyy I can talktalk with again ;)
Another good news is that mummy is willing to pay for my PDL! Ringan sikit beban aku ;D

But I've got something bad that is lingering in my heart :(
Something is wrong with baby, but she won't tell me. Maybe she's still uncomfortable with me that's she can't share that much stuffs with me. I understand, but I'm worried cos she isn't herself and I feel useless that I'm unable to make her happy :((

*raise up my hand* Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, berilah Nur Shafeena Binte Samaruddeen ketenangan di hatinya Ya Allah, Amin.

I hope baby will be fine :/

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Alhamdulillah, we have solved the conflict we had, and now we're happy together ;)

I managed to talk things out with baby & I realised that everything that had happened was my fault. I'm the one who is stupid, I'm the one is so afraid of being honest. Hais I should be scolded or best, beaten up. One thing that I dislike abt myself is that I tend to do stupid things when I'm emotional & will only think of the consequences later on. Now that I've realised my mistakes, I'm just praying & trying my best not to do things like that anymore. I'm sorry baby :(

I feel useless. I'm the one that is suppose to console baby, protect her and tell her what is right & wrong, but instead I did something like this. Haisss. Ohh well, what can I say? We're all humans, and we make mistakes. The mistakes that I've made is a slip of mind.

I don't like it when we fight baby :( it just hurt me to see us far apart :( No, I do not want us to fight.

I'm sorry baby :( but whatever it is, YOU are the only one that I love! Yes YOU!
Iloveyoubaby<3

Labels: mistakes

What happened between us? Please comunicate with baby :(
Don't tell me you're just gonna give up just like that? After all that has happened? After all we have gone through? After all the dreams & promises we have made to each other?

You wanna stop trying? I don't care if you've have stopped trying. I know I'm trying right now. But I just need to talk to you. Things won't get settled if we just keep queit all the way like this.

Remember when the first time we meet? We watched kung fu panda and we so close to each other until our shoulders touch?
Remember when I had to go for a holiday? The way you said you'll wait for me to come back and you've explored the way to the sky park at tampines one & wish to sit there with me when I got back to singapore?
Remember how we first held our hands together, how both of us was shy but we just don't wanna let go?
Remember when I proposed to you, how I could not sit properly and was walking here and there?
Remember the promises I've made to you?
Remember when it was only 2 days to our relationship and your ex decided to spoil everything?
Remember how we got through it?
Remember when we would sit at the sky park and talk abt everything under the moon and that I'll always love you?
Remember when it was our first month, when you bought for me a uniqlo pants that I didn't ask for it?
Remember when you surprise me by treating me to watch the movie that I have always wanted to watch?
Remember when we went to marina and took our first pic?
Remember when we watch the fireworks, and you cried becos you've long for this happiness?
Remember when you look at the MBS skypark, and said that you would like to go there someday?
Remember when it was national day and we managed to squeeze out despite the crowds and still managed to watch the fireworks?
Remember when talked abt Ryyan, the son you wanted with me when we get married in 7 years time?
Remember when you said that you dreamt of you marrying someone but could not figure out his face and you still thought it was me?
Remember when I told you that I dreamt of you being pregnant with out future son? Remember how we would confess to other and fall in love with each other all over again?
Remember when you was at your worst and I didn't want to leave cos I wanna let you know that I'll always be there for you?
Remember when I was at my very worst and your ex still haunt us, but you was there to assure me and make me feel secured?
Remember how after that we manage to pull through and fall in love with each other again?
Remember when I had to attend to your open house and I was freaking scared?
Remember what happened on the 20th oct?
Remember how we confess to each other at tamp inter?
Remember what happened on the 25th oct?
Remember when we told each other that we will still love each other despite all that has happened?
Remember when how we used to say, nothing can ever destroy our relationship now becos our love is just too strong?
REMEMBER HOW WE MANAGE TO GO THROUGH IT ALL TILL WE CAN MAKE IT THIS FAR?

Remember what happened on the 25th June 2011?

I know its long, but do you remember all that has happened between us? Are you still gonna give up and stop trying? You can go on and think for all you want. Without communication, things won't go as nice as we wanted them to be.

Labels: bad times, remember good times