Grrrr~
You know sometimes when you're angry at yourself, that you just feel useless? I know cause im feeling it right now. I just fcking hate it when im sleepy. Seriously, I fucking hate it. Why? Let me tell you guys why ;

First of all, when im sleepy, my eyes will start to get smaller and smaller. When im at my bed with the fan on at number 3, my eyes will get even smaller. If im whatsapp-ing with baby, i will try the hardest to keep myself awake. If I feel like sleeping, I'll do something that will not make me sleep. But most of the time, I failed :((
CCb its like frustrating! The most frustrating part is when im supposed to call my girlfriend, my eyes will like close automatically :(
I looked back at the msg for the time difference, it shows 3 mins difference. I FELL ASLEEP WITHIN 3MINS! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?!!! PPFFFFFFFT.

To my baby love ;
Im sorry im always being like this. It has not happened once, but a few times already. Im being sucha letdown to you. Im sorry. Im truly sorry. This is one of my most worst and most hated weakness I have in me. I'll slowly find a solution on how to overcome this stupid problem of mine kay syg. I know its very frustrating to wait for me to call, but in the end never get to hear my voice. Im trying to mend my ways. Im trying to tackle this problem. You do not know how this is affecting me very badly. Feeling remorseful, and guilty at the same time :(

Sorry once again, baby :(

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