6.14, and still awake!
and its all because of this fking, annoying, irritating, flu that i've got! Cb.

its kinda easy to be awake when i have this flu, cause when my nose is being blocked, i have this mentality that its gonna make my sleep unpeaceful. fuck it. who cares anyway. im gonna try to go to sleep by hook or by crook.

ohh and, yes, i really miss you.

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Okay, so im left with one day to find a present. Wait, in the first place, should i even buy it? what if i dont even have to chance to give it to her?

WHAT IF! SHE WERE TO REJECT MY GIFT?!?!?

Aiyahhh. i think to much luhhh. she's not that bad luhhh. unless she really really hates me. but still, im not going to risk it, cause i've already suffered so much. i dont think i can take another blow. its already enough that she refuse to entertain me right now.

but! too many buts. im still considering whether to get a small cake for her? or a bear? nahhh. too cliche. surprise her? but surprise her with what? bleahhhh. so stress. the most is, i would just send a birthday wish through text msg? yes, i think thats the best.

i wonder if she is thinking of me right now. hmmm.
i sometimes thought of treating her the way she is treating me right now, but, it would be abit too late i guess. cause i know, if i were to treat her the way she treats me right, she would surely hate me.

if i could just read her mind, i would know what she is thinking of me right now. cause the first moment she entertain me, the next, she acted like i was a stranger.

"we can still be friends."
yeahhhh right.

i just wish i could tell you all this.

but...sighhh.enough said.

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